An open letter to the creator. Version A

I’ve always questioned my existence. I’ve always questioned your existence if were being honest. What’s real if it’s not visible. I’m okay saying that. I look at the adversity that you put in front of me and I always questioned why you allowed all this hardship to prosper. 

Am I supposed to believe that this was for the greater good? Am I supposed to believe that there was some deeper meaning? 

Your people have a whole lot to say about you but they can’t be trusted. I say this because they all have an agenda but you know that. 

I searched for you in the church and found myself more lost and confused. Wassup with that? 

They told me all I had to do was follow your rules and live a sinless life. I tried that shit and found myself living a life that wasn’t mines. 

I’m writing this letter because I now understand more than I did in the past. I appreciate that. 

I left the church at 25. Thank you for giving me the courage to go find my own path. 

I’m slowly understanding to trust you, more alone trust myself and lean on you for wisdom. 

Thank you God.